Life through the eyes of a small town girl

Sunday, August 13, 2006

My most recent book find is one a little different from the autobiographies I have posted about in the past. Usaully I wait until I have completly finished reading before I post my thoughts... however, I am not sure I am going to finish reading this book. You see I have been reading the autobiography of Marylin Manson.

I was first intrigued by this book because I thought there must be something that has happened to him to make him the way he is... no one is just born like that. I thought he must have a lot of really intellectualy points to make and must really have a good head on his shoulders, but has been mislead somewhere down the road. I was wrong.

Reading the book has opened my eyes to a lot of things that Marylin Manson is, and is not. He claims to be a Santanist, yet doesn't really live up to it other then in make-up (not that this is a bad thing, that santanist part I mean.. the make up is, well let's face it, creep-o to the max) Manson claims to be a lot of things he is not, one thing that I have concluded reading this book is that he is just a normal person experiencing normal feelings and normal thoughts, the only difference is he wants attention for it, and happens to make millions of dollars doing it.

Having said all this, it still could turn out that he is much different today, like I said I have not finished reading it yet, it is very hard to get through, for the most part it was really hard to put down, you are kind of drawn in and your not sure why... but by the end its hard to keep going, you can tell what parts are his drug days because it doesn't make any sense. This is why I say I am not sure if I will be able to finish it, I have some what lost interest in what he has to say, this hasn't happened before, and I am disapointed to say the least.

Maybe I will try and get through it just for the sake of finsihing the book, all I know is the next thing I read is going to have to be something on the opposite end of the spectrum, something like Tammy Fayes autobiography...

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Sex, Drugs, and Rock and Roll... the making's of one amazing book

Hi everyone, and welcome to segment two of Jen's summer book reading. To my fam that's reading these maybe you don't want to just yet as I am also submitting these to Michele for her magazine idea.

I just recently finished reading "I'm with the Band" and autobiography of the life and times of Pamela Des Barres... a groupie for those of you who have never heard of her, not just any groupie though, the groupie, she was the original. Miss P's life revolves around legendary rockers such as Jimmy Page, Mick Jager, Michael Des Barres, and countless others.

I was so taken in by this book, we all have our impressions of what a groupie is, someone who sleeps with countless band members (in a nut shell). "I'm with the band" is Pamela's story about how "Groupie" did not start out with that meaning, at least not in her mind. Pamela started her groupie career out with the GTO's, girls together (and the last letter's meaning always changed but for the most part it stood for Outrageously) It was an all girl group who sang and opened up for some lesser known bands at the time, and some well known bands. The GTO's is where she earned the nickname Miss P.

In the forward, which is written by Dave Navarro of Jane's Addiction, Dave explains upon meeting Pamela all he could do was stare; he was so taken in by her... I guess there is just something about her. I couldn't understand at that point what he meant, but I do now. Even through her writing you can't help but be taken in by this amazing person, she writes in such a way that you can't help but feel a strong connection with her.

I found it really interesting to read about Miss P's life as a groupie in a way that I don't think you could unless you A) met her in person or B) Read what she has to say. Miss P had no idea that these rock stars only wanted to sleep with her and that was all. In her mind she thought they wanted to peruse something more, I think mainly because she wanted to peruse something more (with most of them) Case in point Jimmy Page, she thought she was his girlfriend even though in the back of her mind she knew he had a girl in every city. When they finally "broke up" as with every rock star she perused she would cry for days over it.

This girl's life is truly extraordinary, and a fascinating life, just like when reading "Scar Tissue" (see earlier blog) I can't help but feel a profound fondness and connection with this girl, she writes in such a way that you can't not feel it.

I am truly in love with this book and highly recommend it, and as twisted as it is makes me want to go to Hollywood even more.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Caffeine Free?

I've been hearing a lot of buzz on the radio about this new energy drink called Cheetah that claims to be caffine free. This sparked my interested as I am allergic to caffeine so have not been able to dable in the area of caffine drinks. (maybe that's a good thing)

I decided to do a little research on this drink before I went out and made my first purchase of an energy drink. I learned upong reading the ingredient list that the 8th ingredient in this new fantastic caffeine free energy drink is... you guessed it... caffeine!

With my new found information, and being the neice of a great writer (that's you aunt Joanne) I decided to write an e-mail (pasted below) to the manufactures of Cheetah to let them know how disapointed I am to learn this, and to let them know that I am not the only person in this world that is allergic to caffeine. This is a very dangerous game cheetah is playing with the public. I may not be deathly allergic, but that doesn't mean that everyone else isn't.

I am very upset about this as I was really looking forward to trying an energy drink ,and to learn that you have been misled by someone is very frustrating and upsetting.

I don't think false advertising should be allowed ever, too many corporations get away with it, and it is unfair to the consumer. I would like to see something done about this.


(Letter to the manufacturers)

I was very excited to hear on the radio that your new energy drink “Cheetah” is caffeine free. I found this particularly interesting because I am highly allergic to caffeine which eliminates all energy drinks for me.

When I heard that Cheetah was caffeine free I couldn't wait to try it out; I just read the ingredients in this beverage, and am very disappointed to learn that the 8th ingredient in “Cheetah” is CAFFEINE. This is false advertising and I for one am very upset that you have misled the public about this product. I would have gone into an allergic reaction if I had not read the ingredients and just drank the energy drink taking your word that there is no caffeine in it. How dare you mislead the public.

I am not the only person in this world who is allergic to caffeine, who knows who else will just take the advertising word that Cheetah is caffeine free, drink it, and react. I am very disappointed in what Cheetah is saying and will make sure my thoughts are known to everyone I know, encouraging them not to buy this product.

Friday, May 26, 2006

Funeral at sea... an Ode to my fishy

My poor fishy didn't stand a chance. I have had a saltwater aquarium set up for 4 months, and have had my Coral Beauty in it for about a month. My poor poor beauty. He has been sick for probably a week and a half, and this morning he finally kicked the bucket. I have no idea what went wrong, I gave him his medicine regularly, I guess it was just his time.

Anyways thats not really what I want to write about, but it was a sad funeral in the toilet this morning. That little fishy cost me nearly $30!!! ouch!

Anyhow onto what I really want to talk about. Has anyone seen the Davinci code yet?! I had a great discussion with my grandmother the other day about it, but I am torn. My grandmother brought up the point that they are trying too much to make it real that people are forgetting that this book/movie is completly fiction, and I agree with her. This is a huge bash on Christianity. I was so convinced that I was never going to read this book or see this movie, until I stopped and thought for a moment. Maybe seeing the movie isn't such a bad idea. Maybe it would be good to see it, so that when I am having a conversation with someone who believes it to be true I will know what they are talking about and be able to arm myself with knowledge to conteract their points, because gaurenteed this movie is going to strike a lot of talk in non believers. I also believe that if I am strong enough in my faith seeing the movie or reading the book won't hinder it.

I think maybe instead of scouffing at the book/movie and saying how horrible it is, maybe we should go out and see it, and arm ourselves with the truth so that people who aren't as strong will have something more then just what hollywood is telling them is true to think about.

Just a thought!

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Happy 94 Years of Mystery.. oh yeah and happy easter too


I just wanted to say that tonight at 2am will be 94 years since the Titanic sank!!! Also we had a gigantic hail storm last night that caused dents in all of our cars! Titanic sinking, crazy hail storm, coincidence?! Maybe not...

I also want to say I GOT A JOB!! Hurray!! I will be a marketing intern for 6 months for a little theatre company. I am very excited about this, I wrote my last exam on Thursday drove back home on Friday went for my interview at 3, got a call back by 6 with the job offer!! Thank you God!!

HAPPY EASTER!!!!

P.s--> The picture is the golf-ball sized hail that hit last night!

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Officially Done College

I just wrote my very last exam today!! I am officially done college!! It didn't actually hit me until I was filling out the last page of my geography exam that this would be the last exam I would be writing in my college career. I got an overwhelming sense of fear sweep across me, this is it, I'm out in the real world, I need to find a job, and start a life of my own. It is scary, but also very exciting!! I can't wait to see where I end up, what God's plan for me is. I am also sad because I am moving out of my house tomorrow morning, but am very excited for home cooked meals again!! See you soon momma!! :)

Monday, April 10, 2006

Brilliant and mislead


I have recently finished reading a book called "Scar Tissue" It's the autobiography of Anthony Keidis, the lead singer for the Red Hot Chili Peppers. I can not stop talking about this book. For those of you who don't know Mr. Keidis starting using drugs when he was only 12. The first time he had his first hit of weed was with his father; in fact there is a series of 4 pictures in the book that his dad took of him doing this for the first time. The same year he lost his virginity to one of his dad's 20 year old girlfriends, a little too young for the father, but way too old for him.

This book has enticed be for a couple reasons, I find drugs a very interesting subject, hear me out on this one... I'm scared to death of drugs, I would never do them, but I find it interesting to hear stories about people who do them, why they started, and what it's like to be addicted to such powerful substances. Anthony's first drug incident with his father at age of 12 opened up his world to cocaine which then opened his world to heroin. Reading this book I was blaming the father the whole way through, thinking things like this poor boy, he doesn't know better. Anthony tells his readers though that he does not blame his dad for anything, it was his choice, he saw what it did to his father and he did it anyways. I have to give him props for taking responsibility for his own actions; I don't know many drug users that would do the same.

Mr. Keidis also explains how the addiction works, something I find very interesting. He explains that weed is the gateway drug, then the user (or at least in his case) needs to find something stronger something with a greater high, so he chose to do heroin. Now here's where it gets interesting, since cocaine is a chemical it brings you up on this enormous high by taking away another chemical, but when you come back down it doesn't give you that missing natural chemical back, instead you are left feeling terrible. To combat this cocaine addicts will shot heroin to replace the missing natural chemical, this creates a balance, but when you come down you are left with the same problem. It's a never ending cycle; I can see why people can get addicted after trying it once. What I don't understand is when you find out how drugs work and affect you, especially from a well respected musician, then why do people still do it? Mr. Keidis tells his readers who terrible it was to be addicted, and how much harder it was to get clean again. He explains how he got hepatitis from doing drugs, and how friends of his died from doing the same things he was.

What I find truly amazing about this story is through all of the drug binges he went on, he never lost his life. People around him were dying left right and centre for doing the same drugs on the same binges, but he survived every one. I think God is trying to tell him something, and I really believe that he is suppose to do something great for God, if he would just listen. The sad thing is Anthony is most interested in the Buddhist faith. He has been deceived by the new age, and truly believes he is following "god" this makes me sad. I pray that he will get the blinders taken off his eyes and influence his fans in the way I truly believe God wants him to.